In course of tears and laughter

কান্না হাসির দোল দোলানো
kanna hashir dol dolano (audio)

In the course of tears and laughter
winter and spring 
I shall bring my offering of songs.

Is this your plan and why
you have given me a wreath
fragrant with melodies?

Is this why I am robbed of sleep,
and why my floodgates are smashed?
Is this why the mad wind wakes my hurt?
and why my light and shades vibrate
all day and night?

Is this your intention, and why
you have given me a wreath 
fragrant with melodies?

I haven't made a bed for the night
I falter in tasks of the day.
But there is no pause 
in my task-less service.

How can I find peace in the world?
It is the tumult which wakes the fire
and lights my music.

Is this your intention, and why
you have given me a wreath
fragrant with melodies?

(another version by Rumela Sengupta)

Swaying between laughter and tears

Swing the seasons - spring and winter

Throughout my life amidst such days

My offering of songs I bear

Is this your divine will?

Is this why you grace me

With a garland fragrant with melody

Is that why sleep eludes my eyes

The defences of my heart come apart

A billowing breeze runs amok

In the deep forests of my perennial pain

Tremulous shivers ripple through

All of my light and shadows dark

Of each and every night and day

Is this your divine will?

Is this why you grace me

With a garland fragrant with melody

A shelter for the night I haven’t built

I fall behind in my day’s work

I find no relief in a task-less worship

Peace there is none amidst this world

Discontentment and disquiet

Pluck at the strings of my Veena

Thus bringing it to life

Ever stoking the fiery blaze

That sears my soul to yield its song

Is this your divine will?

Is this why you grace me

With a garland fragrant with melody